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Escaping

2008-01-20T03:38:24Z

Look there!

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Loyal fan

2008-01-18T10:04:28Z

I GOT MYSELF A TMNT CALENDAR!!!
ohmygodddd. so happy la! cant wait till my room's done so i can hang it up!
i wanted t get chelsea for baby. but DONT HAVE! both hmv outlets dont have lo. so fast la.
must go round finding.

today.
is
the
day.
:D:D finally everyt is over and done. hok ki ah!
so im gg t go (t the still haven gone t) interview, start earning money, finish up my (rubbish dump wannabe) room and live happily ever!
oh add in, decorating my room. :):)
got myself white shoes. but i wanted the leather pairrrrrr >:(

hello friends at the other side of the room, i'll see you in april!

Failure

2008-01-16T05:03:26Z

crit went welllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll :D:D:D:D:D
ohmygod. very happy, very relieved.
all done all over.
i told myself, dont say flaws. but.
i still carried on saying. cock.
but still, :D

now im hungry. but haziq is too nervous t eat. dang.
gg for interview tmr.
gg t start earning money and start saving up!

haziq doesnt even want me t da bao for him. aww.

Huff and puffed

2008-01-14T12:28:09Z

been busy busy busy! haven on-ed for a week! like wow.
im living in a dump.
i ended up sleeping in my living room for 2 nights.
my mother slept in my room for 3 nights.
been painting my house!
all by myselffff
yayyy.
my mother sees that i can paint well and went,
so you can paint.
nb.
so i ended up not doing my room, but her damn living room
ugh.
now im so tired out that im lazy t do my room
:(:(

i need t do crs.
fucked up.
just so lazy. i hate reading and summarising.
its so secondary school.

Count down

2008-01-07T04:58:12Z

bang.
4 days spent just like that.
torture.
i didnt sleep, (like always)
curse viz.
VULGARRRR!
i started rendering from 7 pm till this morning only 44 FRAMES OUT OF 451.
near twelve hours.
can you fucking understand my irritation?
and i was really sleepy. the kind you cant go against :(

i want t sleep sleep sleep.
theres bloody crs tmr.
vulgar.
i want t paint my nails.
but jocelyn wants t go t sentosa.
so i got t wait.
dang.
oh! i cant wait t paint my house,
by
my
self
but my irritating mother doesnt believe that i can do it.
saying bout her, she pissed me off this morning.
fuck.

yay yay
that baby's coming t fetch me from driving centre later
:D
gg t hug him while he drives home
not!
hahaha.

happy birthday anand !

i think i look like shit.
make up not thick enough.
dark rings too deep t cure.

HOLIDAYYYYYYYYY again :D

WC

2008-01-03T16:00:27Z

Conversation:

Mom: (taking toilet roll) this paper is ....
I: (takes off ear plugs) huh?
Mom: this toilet paper is for golden backsides t use. -uses hand t rub ass
I: (taking a few seconds t absorb)... -points middle finger
Mom: (comes into room) REALLY! for golden backsides.
I: why leh
Mom: cause expensive.
I: (fuck off. disturb me) HAHAHA

Damn, love mom lots. nb tell me such stuff.

Smack that (black) ass.

2008-01-02T12:31:26Z

i just want t type a damn entry. lazy t do work. (damn, i still aint working)
well, ive done stuff okay! not wasting my damn ass.

Qs:

why do ah nehs, all have a damn mustache?
why do cheena's tuck in their shirts and pull their pants so high?
why do ah neh's smell like spices? (man, this im super curious)
why do cheena's and ah neh's like staring at girls? (because of this, people become so racist t them. especially you know who)

haha okay, cause i was waiting for bus transport t driving centre. saw indians at work (construction), ALL had mustache. (dang??) and this china guy walked out with his shirt in, pants up.
and tday while in the mrt, a couple of indians came in, and they really reeked of spices. why?

im not being a bitch la. im just super curious. been wondering about those few questions for quite some time.
do indians use spices t wash their bodies?????

It's a wrap, dorks.

2007-12-30T17:33:54Z

Its the last day of the year.
Wow.
Time passes by so fast. (Must say its ID's help that this year came and went by so quickly)

From working, t getting ready for school, meeting friends, working through proj by proj (and never learning from mistakes which is t schedule time properly. damn), till tday.
Ive seen a lot of faces, accumulated lots of smiles, hate and anger (and all the other rubbish emotions) and have made it through the many difficult times.
Im becoming a year 2. (have you seen next years calendar? every vacation is extended except the last one. only 7 weeks -.- its all the give and take kind if you get what i mean. go see the 2008/2009 calendar la. hahah)

Next year I'm gg t get my license, become19, celebrate my 2nd year with him ( :D! ), continue spending as much money (or practically even more). AH yes, most important, finally become a PR, get a job, earn money t spend and more more more.
I'll get my room painted, maybe even my house, start growing up and finally await for 2008's 31st December.

Thank you all, all who made me angry, happy or even just being a friend that i notice. We'll be seeing more of each other. So lets just continue making life difficult for each other. HAHA :):)

Lastly,
Happy New Year.

General audience

2007-12-29T10:18:10Z

i saw the, whats my blog rated, thing at a friends blog and just went t try. it rated me general audience due t the word fuck in one of my posts. man i should try not using shortforms for fuck anymore. than dont use chee, use pussy. dont use lanj,( which i never did anyw. HAHAH) and use dick. maybe later i'll go rate my blog once more t see the difference. hahaha! :):)

menses came tday. pussy! the cramp tortured me till i really couldnt take it. grr.
i just got up from my nap half an hour ago. and im really gg t start on coffeebook. i think im getting from bad t worse.
:(
so anyw woke up this morning early t go t aunt's house t pray. my cousin came, she disappeared for a few years cause she was an air stewardess. but now i bet im gg t see more of her. hohoho!
funny part, my aunts were just (bitching) talking about my another cousin while having lunch. when we left. my cousin said, her car's still here. (!!) we thought she left home cause mom and i saw her walk out of the house. so mom called my aunt and asked her t check. aunt called back later saying, she's not at home. hahaha. aiya but what they said was really damn funny, trying t push the blame t others (if she really was at home)

i met up with boyf ytd after my driving. (more than a month since i last drove manual!!) and i met daniel! haha i thought we were gg t the same session but he said he just ended. dangg.
next lesson new years eve! the more i must faster work work work. surely gg out with the rest t party. yay :D

okay pussy dick fuck (um.....) idiots suckers bullshit ding dang dong. i cant think of shit. tsk.
im so not an (pro in) english (vulgarity) speaker.
what can i say :)

OH, I AM LEGEND IS A MUST SEE :D:D:D:D

Realisation.

2007-12-26T05:49:35Z

i realised something what Christmas can do.

24th,
was at zhiming's house whole night. went there at 10 plus and didnt go back home.
played daidee whole night. lost like nuts.
played 2 rounds.
2nd round won 2 dollars-.-.-.-
stopped at 9 plus i think than had breakf. and 'power nap' for 2 hours or so.
went back home around 1 plus.

25th,
rushed t shower and went back down t huimin's house for buffet.
played mahjong and lost again. tskkkk.
went t have dessert than headed back home. watch tv and went t bed around 11.

26th,
just woke up!
and bee has asked me out.
haha.
need t start homework. i'll try t finish it by tmr. :(
school is starting so soon. bla.

Christmas shows who treats who as friends.

I just got horribly fat. I'll tell you why.

2007-12-23T08:17:49Z

i need t make a confession.
t whom im buying present, please understand and dont be disappointed with what you receive, cause..
im gg t buy it later :(:(

i know its SUPER last minute!

anyw, ytd we went t celebrate melvin's birthday. was out by 1 plus. reached home at 12.
we played mahjong, ate food and cake, went t sing k and before gg home, went t prate house. i had 2 prata's for christ's sake. and cause i was too tired, i couldnt keep myself awake, i went t shower and head t bed quite soon after reaching home.
AND ITS NOT GOOD T SLEEP AFTER YOU JUST ATE. fuck ok :(:(:(:(:( !! (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
i woke up with a bloated stomach. bla.

gg t have dinner with the rest later and meet shiqi after that t buy presentsssss.
dangggg.

Blessings

2007-12-21T11:04:09Z

i went t studio t end up being welcome by locked doors. tamade.
serene sent email saying studio will be opened till tday can. waste my time la!
so i went t boyf's house. had lunch and afternoon nap. wah super shiok okay! i thought i could wake up at 5. he woke me up at 510. hoho!
my eyes still cant open up. bla.

i still haven bought presents. hope t get em when im out tmr.
and i still haven started anyt. i really cant work >:( !!

ZHUMENG! later!
------

okay backkk.
tmr will be out. sunday will be out. monday will be out. tuesday will be out.
OH-MY-GOD

ytd while i was still hot headed over my boyf. nothing much. just couldnt stand him not replying smses. HAHAH :p
i got up from bed, on-ed the light and drew on my wall.
AND
ive decided that once im really free, ( which is sooonnnnnn! (!!!!) ) im gg t decorate my wall! :D:D
ohmy ohmy, cannot wait!
and i want t do a little something for boyf and paste it on his wall. so when he wakes up and goes t bed every night, no need sms also know im telling him good morning and good night! hahahaha!

OHOHOHHHH. i got the online bag i wanted! YAYYYYY you dont know how happy i am. its been like so many times since i couldnt get what i wanted. damn. lucky lucky! credit goes t daniel. hahah. got t transfer money back t him tmr. woohoo!

should listen t jay chou's, tian tian de. not bad.
我尝着你话里面的奶油溜啊溜
听过的每句话都很可口呦啊呦
那些多余的画面全被跳过　
你的眼中只有我

okay i need t run again @#$%^&
happy birthday evan (if you didnt receive my sms)

Emergencies.

2007-12-19T15:28:22Z

Need t get presents, fast.
Got t start work, soon.

730am Appointment.

2007-12-17T14:13:46Z

im gg running! and return as a bag of bonessssss. :):):):)

Credit cards.

2007-12-15T17:08:34Z

im very irritated with my boyf now. you! knn!

anyw!
i went out with an old friend on friday. lucky me! i got t watch movie for freee. cause he had complimentary tickets. weee :D
wanted t buy present for this person (LOL) but i dont know what t get la! didnt see anyt. but i spent 20 over bucks on nice nice paper for christmas cards. even tho they ended up looking superrrr ugly! >:( nb ah nb.
when we meeting t celebrate christmas ay!?

i got awoken by lennon in the middle of the night! lolol. its been toooo long since i had sudden midnight calls. dangggg. heard what he had t say than called darling cause he smsed me at 3 (put down the phone with lennon at 340 like that) so we talked a little and went back t sleep.

tday went out with bee.
i got myself the dress i saw while at vivo on friday! its a damn 75 bucks okay! for new yearrrr. gave it t mummy t keep alr. lol. you can have a glimps of it at friendster. hohoh. anyw, bee and i spent a bomb each. gah.
we had wufeng t be our private chauffeur :D!! and he sucks at driving. so my aim is t be a better driver than him, which seriously is a useless goal. HAHAH.
came back around 4 plus. so early la! we were out for lyk 3 hours only. slept for 3 hours plus, t wake up t be disappointed by my asshole boyfffff. i did a little timetable for the holidays. sucks t the core. and its really anyhow planned. hahaha. but at least i have something t guide ma laaaa.

cause dear friend, youre appearing in my mind.
making me feel safe and sound.

Accomplishment.

2007-12-13T03:45:48Z

im listening t CADP tday.
NOT.
but i actually wanted t. but viz is not on my side. somethings wrong. gahhh.

im super hungry.
and everyt's thats due tmr is doneeeee :D:D
this week is THA BESTTTT.

& love. happy 21!

Workaholic

2007-12-11T08:19:51Z

elaine announced that T3A and T3B marks are out
AND I DID FUCKING BADLY !!!!!
nb leh. got a C and D.
D leh!!! a D+ la. BUT ITS STILL A D. knnnnnnn.

i think my group is the coolest.
im not sharing what we're doingggg. later others copyyy. lolol.
ytd i had no motivation and drive t work. so now im doing damn cad.
it wasnt as tedious as i thought -.-
im done!
left with annotations, measurements, line weight etc etc. hohoh!

melissa brought her boyf up. aww.
everybody's not in studio. damnnn. so boringggg.
and haziq has printed his stuff alr! wahlaoooo.
i must faster faster do and go print toooo.

tonight start moodboard. all finish by tmrrr! (night. hahaha)
thursday go print. need t waste money, againnnnn.

holiday is SOONNNNN.
(i just realised from the 'melissa brought...' sentence, all the last words are all draggedddddddd. HAHAH)

Round, round baby

2007-12-10T14:53:35Z

spent the day with darling ytd.
went t town.
got him his christmas present!
and i like what i got :):)!

spent saturday at home.
watched more dvds.
watched finish the twos shows i borrowed
see how free i am -.-

need t do cad again.
tamadeeee
its the last week of schoollll :D
tday, we switched off the main lights and left these few orange-y lights on.
the ambience was fucking nice!!
i even wanted t skip driving cause of it. hahaha
added t the festive season feel mannn

tday, a indian taught me.
i dont really like the kind of instructors that go, mm, yes. good. blablabla.
THIS ONE EVEN WENT... GOOD GIRL (!!!!!!!!!!!)
knn!! ( !!!!! )
how ew la!
i think i have seriosuly lost the touch of driving! auto is so addictive.
and i haven been driving manual for.. 2 weeks! :O !

i, and my bad tolerance level has paired up t be partners since forever. ( okay maybe not that long. heheh )
i am getting irritated more easily recently.
i dont think im hiding it properly.

okay, that damn good girl indian shaked his leg so much, so hard ( with his right leg only, the whole car shaked. no i-am-not-exaggerating ) till ive got a headache till now.
& happy bithday raymond :)

Nutrition

2007-12-07T14:15:55Z

Happy Birthday Pops.
Happy Birthday Melissa's dad.
Happy Birthday Wanglan.
&
Happy Birthday (long lost) Brother.
i miss you so. i miss you both.

felt damn wrecked cause of viz. lights couldnt work, and i didnt know quite a number of stuff. but i passed up early early! :D:D hahah. tday no one came! ( !!!!!!! ) cheat my feelings. sat alone. sh accompanied me for breakf. and i made her hungry. hoho! been super long since i last talked with her. damn, missed you much hon!
haziq finallyyyyy came, after gems.

darling asked what i wanted for christmas. with that than i remembered about presents. totally forgot about it.
and now, i have t worry about what t get. UGH. i wont even be spending it with him. nb. nbcheeb!
on the trip home on mrt tday, fast-forwarded life t May. t bee's and my birthday. bee'll become 18 and i'll become 19. want t bring her go out party and drink. :p! but our birthdays are on monday and tuesday, school has reopened. and its always the exam period. damn it.

my coursemates are very loving. and jerrold was barbie doll in cinderella's shoes. ( i wont post pictures, promised him not t. tsk! >:( ) but i'll show one! :D

everyone go, awwww.

i remember once smsing darling super long ago and i went,
a: i had birdnest last night leh.
w: so what. i had martel ytd lo.
a: hahah, okay. so where......

in my head i was thinking, whats martel? super naive man! HAHAH.
and how healthy is birdnest. its nothing but sugar, sugar and sugar.

Are you listening?

2007-12-06T03:07:53Z

its CADP and as usual im not listening. im dazing and just looking through blogs, friendster. bla. and theres submission tmr
AND
i slept through the night ytddddd :D:D so i slept a total of... 18 hours
jerrold is beside, dozing off. while i am super awake! hahah.
tday class is packed! totally packed. i took a photo! but i dont think it shows. will load later. now i want t do something t irritate melissa and sh. hehehe. ( aiya! school internet lag leh. not fun >:( its not working on sh leh. but i have irritated melissa and many more! wahahah! )

ytd submission was quite screwed. @#$%^&*
hello swines ( typed by jerrold. )
tday, jerrold is cinderella.

okay bye!

History made

2007-12-04T11:04:47Z

hohoho! been busy doing model. had super loads of fun doing it. find it so much easier with plans pasted on. went t buy more material tday. with jo. and came back home t sleep. had difficulty getting up. been up for near 2 hours alr and still haven started doing cad. not really sure what t dooooo >:(

last few days was with darling and his family. celebrate his fathers birthday. sunday was a ultimate fattening dinner. had swensens and their service sucked t the max. nb. after dinner dear and i went t mount faber. hahaha. and it as superrrr cold. i felt the christmas season! i cant wait! but i guess i'll be at home. :(:( he's working and i dont know whether i can find others t celebrate. i dont want t be doing rendering on christmas! ( !!!!! )
talked t his mother ytd while he was sleeping. about him. hoho. i wish mummy would talk too. must stay in living room more. hahah.
skipped intech. like haziq's model. quite cool leh. mine's so plain. bla.
im so addicted t disenchanted tooooo! :D:D

tday studio was so empty. and it was the angmoh teaching tday. didnt really get her name. miss allen? she kind of mumbles t herself. was kind of difficult listening and catching. she will talk at this acceptable volume than get softer and become louder. ( ???? ) got quite lost la. she's married t a chinese! LOL okay not important.

i dont know what t blog alr! tsk. sooo...
i'll start with cad now then. booooo.

There i go again.

2007-11-29T12:52:13Z

im a super sensitive person. but ive been learning how t control and not show it. i will tell a little friend or two something about how i feel and stuff. i can go crazy not speaking, or simply, expressing myself. i dont know why i am that kind of people who just need t speak, speak and speak.

i speak my mind. not all but maybe at times i can indirectly say it out.
but at times, im really joking and not being sacarstic and stuff. but others cannot take such jokes. or are even more sensitive.
i say stuff that i didnt mean it that way. but i talk too fast ( so fast, sometimes people cant catch what im saying. i wonder why i talk that fast too -.- ) and everything else comes too fast too.

and i remember a comment sharyn once wrote for me, p.s. ......loud package included. something like that. i wonder why im so loud. its such a habit. i think cause i speak so loud at home, it just follows me everywhere alr. but when it comes t boyf, i get a little softer. BUT i still speak super loud that he tells me off. >:( and doesnt believe me that i really dont bother bout how people see me cause im like that with everyone. i think he wants face. hohoho!

and ytd a gems-mate really started t irritate me cause he kept saying i was rough and i dont seem lyk that. and even when i kept telling him off ( in a play-play way ) in my normal volume, he just continued. nbcheeb.
and i really couldnt stand him anymore. how could he keep assuming that im not like that. in gems class, i know no one. of course i keep t myself! but if i really talk with others/group work or whatever. I-AM-LOUD. everyone knows that. except people like him who dont know me ( but who seemingly think that he does and went on and on. ) when i felt that it was enough with the about-me and lets-get-back-t-discussing-assignment, i went, im not your bloody girlf! why are you saying that im rough and whatever over and over again! what has me being rough or not got t do with you?!

Dear friends,
I apologize if in any way i irritate you, piss you off or made you unhappy with my quick-coming-out-of-my-mouth words. it really meant nothing and was all in a joke. cause i dont remember being purposely rude t anyone. and i seriously do hope that i am different from previous semester :):):) !!

yay, plans are just about finish! :D
the above is a random post and do not assume something has happened blablabla.

Dangerously-broken.

2007-11-28T13:10:44Z

my heart aches so bad. that bad.

a little red dot.

2007-11-27T09:00:52Z

okay lets change it t 4 patches. @#$%^&*
my menses came early early please !! it should be at the beginning of the month. and it came tday. and stained my skirt! luckily i found out early. or else i think the stain can be compared t Japan's flag. :(:(:(

there is TOO much t finish by sunday. nb. now add crs. asked if can pass up t a later date. but no, wont be such thing. ugh.
ive been having bad sleeps! >:(
i woke up thinking i should go shower and get ready when i mistook mummy closing her room door after she went t have a pee in the morning as my alarm clock. WHAT A BIG DIFFERENCE LO. and than my love smsed me and i woke up 10 mins or so before my alarm should ring. ugh. so i was ready very early tday and i forgot t bring ez-link. RAH! total of $2.20 wasted on stupid transition card.

getting materials tmr. after gems. and meeting dear for awhile before he has t go down t crescent. boo. its been so long since really spent time with him. 3 times alr okay! i dont even get t exchange much words with him. and he goes, i got something on later... blablabla. pfft. but i also dont really have time now. i want rest. but this coming holidays also shit. AIYA.

i bought a bag online this time! i hope i get it. i even asked winson t help me transfer the money t get a higher chance in getting the bag. hahah but they haven replied my email. :(:( but i'll change it t this cute jumper or something if dont get it. same price. :D

have you heard of facial yoga? hahaha

blame it on the noodles.

2007-11-24T05:22:26Z

i dont like the feeling when.. people contact you when they want t go out and when theres nothing more t say, they wont contact you until some time later when they have something t say and want t go out.
cannot stand it ( at all ) when people dont like another person being another person's friend and want t be known or seen as his/her good good friend so sound like some 'big boss' ( not the right word but leave it ) and say/ do rubbish which makes no sense.
and i ( really ) hate it when people dont reply smses. ( not referring t anyone, im just stating the i-dont-likes tday. hahaha! )
i detest the feeling of being an outcast or something, when everyone was close and all talked a lot, and just suddenly after holidays or something, one or two wont really talk t you.
dont like people treating people as transparent when the one they want t talk t isnt that person but another so they just walk past this someone.
i dont like it when it seems so hard t make friends, or even communicate.
i dont like it when people dare not settle stuff and just yak behind. ( unless its tho freaking minor stuff, and instead of settling, people make a big fuss out of it instead. say say a little is fine. ALL DO SO LA! )
i hate it when friendships come and go. why not be friends. and keep in contact. why say you 'hate' ( kind of strong but whatever ) this person ( even tho they are/were you bestest friend ) because of blablabla, but when another friend goes, you go back and be good good friends with that 'hated' one. what happened t that friend who went? the friendship hasnt ended what. why make it seem like it has? and why wait for that friend t contact than contact?
and i hate hate hate when close people dont listen t advice and make their days so hard.
i SUPER DUPER HATE it when people dont sleep and dont go t school because of putting ( too much ) friendship as first priority and do anyt for them which they have t neglect something else instead. ( time management pleaseeeeeee )
i detest broken promises, where people would say they would do-this, but end up adding so many other do-this where their first do-this becomes the last.
and i really really dont like it when that particular duck noodle shop changed cooks and made my breakf taste so yucky ( !!!!! )

sound so hateful HAHAHA. but all this happens t you, t me. anyone la. its normal. being naggy only hohum! and it really is because of the noodles. and melissaaaa, hey hey you you is my verse please! want use, must ask for permission! LOL